There is a saying that if you aren't a liberal at 20 you don't have a heart and if you aren't a conservative by 30 you don't have a brain. Its so true. But here is the stinking truth about liberalism. Liberalism would WORK(no it will never work) if there weren't leaders. The liberal leaders LOVE being leaders! They are KINGS and you are their slave. HOW? They promise free stuff all the time right? Free health care, free education, free food, free housing. But the ugly side is that if you accept their free stuff you are nothing but a slave to them. They feel good about giving you all this free stuff but you had never ever question their leadership. If you do you will be cut off and ostracized. They want all the people from everywhere to come here and vote. WHY? Because you are now indebted to them for the rest of your life. AND THAT is their best situation and their overall hopes and dreams. That the slaves to their system will keep them in power forever. How can you beat free stuff!!??
The problem is SOMEONE in todays world has to pay for all the free stuff you get. That is the tax payer. The system will collapse under its overbearing weight eventually if everyone then decides to take all the free stuff and you dont have people working and making livings on their own. Sweden was one of the first to offer free everything and it wasnt long before the government knew it wasnt going to work. Their first brain storm which was totally weak was to have a Swedish Icon come forward to speak to the people. Their solution to the problem (great thinking by the intellectuals of the liberal cause) HAVE MORE BABIES so they could have more tax payers to pay for all the free stuff!! But they forgot with their system no one wants to work! They all want free stuff and to sit around and smoke weed all day.
At the END OF THE DAY someone somewhere has to pay for stuff you get. So the BEST way to do all this is for everyone to be responsible for themselves. An idea that is abhorrent to liberals because in that system (conservatism) no one needs a liberal elite ruling class to tell them what to do. In our society its the liberal media that wants to tell everyone how to live their lives and how to suck off the tit of the government and all those tax payers who PAY for all the FREE stuff you get. Its the only way a system can hum along for ever with no drag on the society. This type of system uses its moralistics to help those who cant help themselves. God fearing Christians in our case where our country was founded by Christian men who know how to come together and take care of those who need help. Churches take care of those who need help. People go to church and give and the church uses those fund to help those in need. But liberals HATE religion. Their only religion is themselves because not only do they know more than YOU they know more than GOD!!! And if the churches and people take care of themselves then their is no need for liberal leaders.
Thats the ONLY reason that some one like hillary could even DREAM of getting elected. Promising to take care of the little guy. I have never met this little guy but its the same old routine of every liberal candidate:"We will take care of you"
And on top of that the liberals will SHAME you for not believing like they do. Thats why Trump got elected without them knowing it. Alot of people were tired of the current status quo. Politicians just sucking off the American worker tit without doing anything to help the American worker. So when people were tired of this broken system they wanted change. But the liberal media asked people who they were going to vote for and if someone said Trump, they were IMMEDIATELY ridiculed. But the average person thought the only ridiculous thing is that the same old system stay in place if Hillary gets elected. A politician in the most perfect sense, she had never held a job, never had any experience other than moving to NY and fooling all those people out of a senate seat then did nothing but make money off the position. So the REAL American voter said fine make fun of me but I AINT voting for her. I will vote for Trump and just not tell the media.
Well either this is America taking back her country from blood sucking politicians or the last middle finger to the establishment who wants to take the US and make her just another member of some globalistic society instead of the great country that has saved the world so many times. So lets hope that is the former and not the latter. Liberalism will NEVER work because in the end SOMEONE had to pay for everything. And the paying group is getting smaller and smaller everyday. Lets hope we rise up and take it back. Work for yourself and your family. Ensure the success of YOUR family. And let others do the same. All those together can be great together!
Tuesday, December 13, 2016
Thursday, October 1, 2015
Here comes the PINK football shoes!!!!! and What for??????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Every October 1, we get bombarded by Pink everything because its Breast Cancer Awareness month!!!! And most notably the National Football League, my favorite pastime, comes out in Pink everything. Pink shoes, pink ribbons on the footballs, pink sweat bands, Pink socks. Every piece of wearable equipment can be had in Pink. I have not checked but I bet there are pink jock straps in the locker room( and no I wont follow up on that one ). The NFL as we have found out over the last couple of off-seasons cares a lot about its image and THE SHIELD! The Shield being the label for the NFL. The players, the coaches, the front office staff is supposed to do everything it can to protect and uphold the image of THE SHIELD! During October the SHIELD is concerned with Breast Cancer Awareness Month, and decks out its people, stadiums and fields with Pink to let everyone know how concerned it is with Breast Cancer Awareness Month, October. Because without women there is no football.
The NFL tries to show everyone how concerned it is with this deadly disease that takes our mothers, our sisters and our aunts way too early. So the NFL dresses itself up in PINK uniform parts, PINK official hats and PINK ribbons and ties to show how much it cares. To its credit the NFL auctions off alot if not all of the pink unifornm pieces and then gives the proceeds to local cancer groups to fight the deadly disease.
But as I sit through another October PINK wash of my TV set I can't help wonder if its real or as the NFL as shown over the last couple of disastrous off seasons just for its image. For instance wouldn't it be better for all involved for the NFL to just donated the money to the American Cancer Association instead of going through all the trouble of making the shoe or jersey or helmet, then having it worn, auctioned off where I am SURE everyone is getting its little hooks into each little piece of the pie before a few pennies gets to the people doing the research on the disease? Instead put big counters in each stadium that count up each dontaion to the Breast Cancer Association, and watch how much REAL money gets to the universities and scientists doing the work to STOP this deadly disease. Not that I care how stupid my team looks all in Silver Pink, black and blue. I am guessing MUCH more money would get to the women who need this help NOW, not after Levon Bell wears the shoe, then gets it to the auction house, then auctioned and ~$1.45 of that $200 pair of shoes gets to the woman taking in her last breaths. That woman who was somebodies mom. That woman who was someones wife and lover. That woman who was someones loving sister. Is there NOT a better way???
Paul Guggenbuehl
Just a fan
The NFL tries to show everyone how concerned it is with this deadly disease that takes our mothers, our sisters and our aunts way too early. So the NFL dresses itself up in PINK uniform parts, PINK official hats and PINK ribbons and ties to show how much it cares. To its credit the NFL auctions off alot if not all of the pink unifornm pieces and then gives the proceeds to local cancer groups to fight the deadly disease.
But as I sit through another October PINK wash of my TV set I can't help wonder if its real or as the NFL as shown over the last couple of disastrous off seasons just for its image. For instance wouldn't it be better for all involved for the NFL to just donated the money to the American Cancer Association instead of going through all the trouble of making the shoe or jersey or helmet, then having it worn, auctioned off where I am SURE everyone is getting its little hooks into each little piece of the pie before a few pennies gets to the people doing the research on the disease? Instead put big counters in each stadium that count up each dontaion to the Breast Cancer Association, and watch how much REAL money gets to the universities and scientists doing the work to STOP this deadly disease. Not that I care how stupid my team looks all in Silver Pink, black and blue. I am guessing MUCH more money would get to the women who need this help NOW, not after Levon Bell wears the shoe, then gets it to the auction house, then auctioned and ~$1.45 of that $200 pair of shoes gets to the woman taking in her last breaths. That woman who was somebodies mom. That woman who was someones wife and lover. That woman who was someones loving sister. Is there NOT a better way???
Paul Guggenbuehl
Just a fan
Thursday, September 17, 2015
Philadelphia Eagles SUperBowl ARE YOU KIDDING?????
THis year in the Preseason, about half the media speaking heads took the Philadelphia Eagles to win the Superbowl in the 2015 Season. I just dont understand this. There are ways to tell who is who in the world of Vegas and they have to have it right to get their money. Otherwise some guy off the street could rip vegas off by bazillion dollars. First of all with Barkley at QB is ridiculous! I like the kid. He is a good QB but Chip Kelly just threw this hodgepodged team together. Teams do not gel in one season. So sure pick this team to be a wild card but the Superbowl? THe chances Barkely finished the season so far is horrible. SO far in 3 seasons 0/3. He had to have an Xray AFTER the FIRST game this year. Bet your bottom dollar he dont make it to the middle of the season.
THen Philly pays a CB From Seattle 6 trillion dollars to be a shut down corner, First week Maxwells results vs Atlanta's Juilio Jones:9 catches for 140 yards and 2 TD. Not bad for your shut down corner.
Demarco Murray, 1800 yards rushing last year. This year week one 9 rushes for 8 yards. Every week through week 10 or 11 he had 100 plus yards with Dallas. FLOP! Young Wide outs and young OL.
THEN every SKILL player on the Eagles on offense is ranked below every comparable skill player on the Dallas Cowboys. I cant remember a team just stuck together like this that then won the Superbowl. So IF EVERYONE stays healthy on that team and you got people who got paid (that
dont risk their bodies afterwards) lik Demarco who may not be the person they were the year before.
SO I am just recording this right here Philly will struggle and maybe get a wild card with Sanchez finishing the year.
THen Philly pays a CB From Seattle 6 trillion dollars to be a shut down corner, First week Maxwells results vs Atlanta's Juilio Jones:9 catches for 140 yards and 2 TD. Not bad for your shut down corner.
Demarco Murray, 1800 yards rushing last year. This year week one 9 rushes for 8 yards. Every week through week 10 or 11 he had 100 plus yards with Dallas. FLOP! Young Wide outs and young OL.
THEN every SKILL player on the Eagles on offense is ranked below every comparable skill player on the Dallas Cowboys. I cant remember a team just stuck together like this that then won the Superbowl. So IF EVERYONE stays healthy on that team and you got people who got paid (that
dont risk their bodies afterwards) lik Demarco who may not be the person they were the year before.
SO I am just recording this right here Philly will struggle and maybe get a wild card with Sanchez finishing the year.
Tuesday, March 17, 2015
How NOT To publish a You tube Birth story or Hot to now make anyone want to watch your child be born!
As I said in my last blog about this subject, my grandad genes are kicking in and I have been trying to learn as much as I can about what to do in the delivery room. One thing I am looking at as the grand-dad is doing most of the videoing because I hear SO MANY times the dad says I wish I could have seen more instead of videoing so much. SO if my daughter inlaw wont mind and I promise to do what I can to promote her upmost privacy I will do it so my son can cut the cord or have the baby go skin on skin with him should mom need a rest. Any way, I need to pick a camera that is good in all kind of lighting condition so that the focal length. One thing I have noticed is narrating the even by either parent with no pictures is right up there with Root Canals as far as fun to watch. Seriously. You want to turn off a audience QUCK like enough to get out of a burning theater? TURN the camera on Mom and Dad and have them narrate the action with no pictures!!! Viewers want to see #1 THE BABY!. And god forbid should there be a technicality viewers want to see what the nurse and or the doctors are doing. 99% of the time of what I have seen nothing ever happens but parents to be would like to see what happens if a twin comes out lazy and isnt breathing right. Its important to calm the parents down and the profesiioanalism of our doctors and nurses is OUTSTANDING. I have never seen anything where the child gets in trouble.
SO Key #1 Dont turn the camera on mom and dad and have them start yakking. Everyone is here (and in the future) to see the new boy or girl come into the world. THEY change SO much over the next 10 to 20 years YOU Mom and Dad DONT, so over voice but DONT put the camera on your munchkin and let them do the acting.
SO Key #1 Dont turn the camera on mom and dad and have them start yakking. Everyone is here (and in the future) to see the new boy or girl come into the world. THEY change SO much over the next 10 to 20 years YOU Mom and Dad DONT, so over voice but DONT put the camera on your munchkin and let them do the acting.
Friday, February 27, 2015
HELP My Grandpa genes are kicking in and I dont know what to do!!!
Hello everybody, Its been awhile since I posted anything mostly because after 2 back surgeries, I have been rehabbing and trying to get better. But a funny thing happened to me a couple of months ago. My cousins daughter had a baby that was 12 weeks premature. From what I have read and I am no neonatologist but that is pretty dang early. These days 10 weeks and less (meaning closer to the predicted birthday) you have increasing chances of getting your baby home with no problems or complications. But fall on the other side of the knifes edge of that 10 week date to birthday and you get in to a real danger zone. It gets worse and worse the earlier its born, and my new Grandcuzchild was 2 weeks BEFORE that 10 week point and baby London was in some real danger in the first few weeks. But dang if our doctors didn't get her all together and well for her trip home in Jan. Pretty close to when she was suppose to be born. So she made it and is just a wonderful little child. Now I am no stranger to this pro-recreation process I did it twice myself (With some help from my wife) I have two beautiful sons 24 getting his engineering degree and my 19 year old just finished up his third semester and is taking a break with a new job at a major grocery store.
But thats not the point. The point is ever since London was born I have this urge to want to have another baby!! For my sons to have children so I can hug my grand-babies. My cousin already gave me permission to call London my Grand-cuz-baby but she is in Austin and I am in Southern California!
So I have desperately been looking for my baby tapes of my sons and I just found them!!! AND I have been watching Poopey babies on you tube for weeks now. Little boys, little girls newborns, 8 month olds twins and triplets. Fighting babies loving babies, babies with gas and babiesI have wanted to pick them up and comfort them, hug them and give them a stomach massage till you get that squirt-y poopey noise!! And those faces. I wish I could do it over again I would be a better father. Career dads just dump the baby in the moms lap and rush off to work, I wouldn't do that. I would have cut the cord. I would have stayed awake at all the nightly feedings. I would have changed more diapers and fed them all. I would hear the cry as a song from God, and enjoyed it , instead of "Hurry up and get the rocker going!" I love my dogs each and every one but they aren't human.
I want to enjoy every second of being a granddad!!
But thats not the point. The point is ever since London was born I have this urge to want to have another baby!! For my sons to have children so I can hug my grand-babies. My cousin already gave me permission to call London my Grand-cuz-baby but she is in Austin and I am in Southern California!
So I have desperately been looking for my baby tapes of my sons and I just found them!!! AND I have been watching Poopey babies on you tube for weeks now. Little boys, little girls newborns, 8 month olds twins and triplets. Fighting babies loving babies, babies with gas and babiesI have wanted to pick them up and comfort them, hug them and give them a stomach massage till you get that squirt-y poopey noise!! And those faces. I wish I could do it over again I would be a better father. Career dads just dump the baby in the moms lap and rush off to work, I wouldn't do that. I would have cut the cord. I would have stayed awake at all the nightly feedings. I would have changed more diapers and fed them all. I would hear the cry as a song from God, and enjoyed it , instead of "Hurry up and get the rocker going!" I love my dogs each and every one but they aren't human.
I want to enjoy every second of being a granddad!!
Wednesday, February 25, 2015
Hell is the Life of a Long Term Pain Sufferer
I am coming out finally of a long term lower back pain issue, that I think, thank God is coming to an end. I am going to share some dark secrets of how alone a pain sufferer can be. How it feels to be looked at as some kind of weak human being, because you can't take an ibuprofen drink a couple of beers and go to bed.
I was always athletic from the time I was -2. I think I came out throwing a ball, and if I didnt, I was chasing it. Fortunately or unfortunately I missed out on high school sports because we moved out to the country, right in the middle of middle school to a school that didnt have a football program, and then into high school where I really wanted to play football (who in Texas didnt) but even at 15 I knew that the wishbone offense wasnt for a 125 lb skinny boy, no matter how fast I was or how good my hands were. At my high school a forward pass was something you did on a fake punt. I played baseball all the way up through Colt league but I came from really developed programs in the city to the country fields where you had to share the outfield with the dairy cattle. The point of all this is my body had very little wear and tear on it as I reached my 30's. I played intramural football, basketball and baseball in college, but that was nothing compared to friends of mine that had double knee surgery in high school.
I graduate college, and work for the military at a very remote place in the middle of the Mojave desert. Utah, Nevada, Oregon, Idaho, Arizona and California are all equidistant, from where this place is. That means very little to do besides work, except for sports. Work times were lax so you could play tennis or basketball at lunch and besides where were you going to after work? Might as well take an hour and a half at lunch and work a half hour late. The best things to do were to join every league I could get into because out here no matter what sport I was as good as any other worker out here. There was mens basketball, Softball, Tennis Club, snow skiing was just hours away and you could do it in a day. Golf was all year round. Running was big, hiking, and cycling. We had a friendly football game every season and if that wasnt enough you could race motocross all over the desert and the West coast.
Well this is all fine and good, and drinking a few beers after the big game was great enjoyable fun, but in my late 40's nagging injuries started to be more of a nag. But I soldiered on I had a high tolerance for pain. One year I had just started learning motocross and I was riding in the desert after work getting ready for a race a state over in California. I developed what I thought was a heat rash around where I carried my waterbag. After the race my arm was still killing me, I though it would go away after the race, but it didnt. So I go see my doctor and he tells me I have a HUGE tolerance for pain because my rash was the late stages of shingles and he had never seen anyone come in with that late of a case. So he prescribed some pain medication for it. That was the first time I had take it in a LONG time but I remember just one pill was fine. But that was an indication that I didnt wander in to the Dr.s office for any little thing.
About 4 years after that I had a large bone sticking out my foot. A spur I think, it was hard to ski with it and I had my first surgery. By now I am in my late 40's and I am still playing everything under the sky BUT when I would bust up an ankle or twist a knee. The Dr. would look at my chart and ask me about the level of pain medication. Fine I would say. Then at 48 I am running pass pattern playing with guys and I leaped into the air and come down on my knee and rip a large bruise in my thigh about the size of a small football. As normal I go snow skiing a week later, no problem. But now I notice my lower back is really starting to ache and a beer and a ibuprofen is no longer working. So over the next few years its getting worse and the Dr. has put me on a pain med program. But after awhile the back pain is increasing and I am going to physical therapy, which was a complete waste of my time and the therapist but hey they are getting their $100 a visit so shut up get on the treadmill stretch, do ice, and go home. I do this for months but didnt come close to using up my insurance for the visits.
THIS is when I start hearing whispers. "How much pain medication is he taking?" People think they are talking behind my back but I hear them and I understand exactly what they are getting at. When i went in to my Doctors office to ask to switch to something else I heard for the first time "we think he is addicted" I am no medical professional so even my mind is working against me. AM I addicted? Well all I have to do close my eyes at night and that roaring dull pain square in the middle of my back is NOT my imagination.
So now I arrive at the point where a TON of people get to I bet. I am HURTING! SOMETHING is wrong with my back! What I am taking is NOT WORKING! AND the Doctor, his associates in his office, the nurses and the staff are all whispering about my addiction. At this point everyone starts working AGAINST you because you are a USER and you are taking ADVANTAGE of the program. Even my wife is thinking I have passed over the edge!
At this point the pain is not going away, and life itself is starting (Starting?) to REALLY SUCK! Since there is no where else to go (this is in the late 2000's) and my pain is getting worse, I start DRINKING to subsidize the small amount of meds they WILL let you have. People who know you and have known you are all starting to gang up. You are looked down on and all the time nobody gives a rats ass how you feel! WHY should they? You are a drug abuser!
During the 2007 time frame a new (new to me) type of doctor came out. They may have been around in big cities but they werent around in my little part of the great plain basin, a PAIN MANAGEMENT doctor. I still dont know if these guys help or hurt you but they do like to string you along. I have no medication at point I have no medication and the Dr. starts you at a low dose of a stronger med than you were taking before. It doesnt matter that your pain maybe at a level that is 10 times worse than it was a year ago. The Dr. is not going to give you 10 times what you were taking before. So what happens is you find out that the pain medication works! For a little while you can almost behave normally! Most importantly if you ARE serious about treating your pain, you had better drop the alcohol at this point because if you are seriously going to treat your condition you can no longer drink and that might be forever.
But it doesnt take long for the Dr. to start treating you like the others. He gives you a small dose no matter how severe the pain is. Because our society is beating into the head of everyone that there are abusers EVERYWHERE and if we dont shut them down society will be in the toilet. There are watchers all over. IN FACT even the pharmacies are getting in to the shutting down the patient. If your doctor says you need medication now, and your insurance says you can have it now based on their restrictions, the PHARMACY WILL NOT DISPENSE until 3 days ahead of the 30 day mark of your last prescriptions! I DONT understand WHO made the Pharmacy GOD! BUT they overrule everyone now, your doctor and your insurance! Another line in the fight against the PAIN SUFFERER.
Dont get me wrong. There ARE abusers. There ARE forgetful aging adults, but there are sufferers who wonder what went wrong in life and WHY were they dealt this hand?
Just before the end of the decade I go into one of the best surgical places in the Western United Stated and see a back specialist, probably the 4th or 5th EXPERT I have been to. At this point it seems as there there is no option out side of surgery. So I have it done. My pain management Dr. says its 50/50 why dont you stay on your pain regimen. "Because I DONT WANT TO KEEP TAKING MEDS!!!" But the Dr. is out of my pocket and that doesnt help him. I go in for a procedure called FLEXIBLE FUSION.
After the surgery I dont feel like I am getting better no matter how much physical therapy I do. He puts me on a muscle relaxer, but that only makes me more dull.
Once in a MAJOR emergency I am stuck in an other state and my meds run out. I am in the HOSPITAL with a family member and I cant leave. I just go see one of the doctors and get my refill right? I have the bottle, no problem. BUT IT IS! Nobody will help and I end up driving 800 miles while going through withdrawls because the hospital wont lift a finger to help. THANKS Medical System!! For making people who suffer SO MUCH suffer even some MORE!!
A year later a family member suggests Rehab!! Its been 1.5 years and I am not better, I am addicted right! WRONG, my back did NOT take to the flexible Fusion and I suffer for 3 more years after the embarrassment of going through rehab with drug addicts.
Three years after the first surgery, I have REAL fusion, and go through all the post op crap everyone has to go through. And I almost went and had it at a smaller hospital and I FREAKED out and walked out just before surgery. So I go back to the world leader and have the real fusion.
I cant do anything for a year and then in to physical therapy. But this time I go to a MD of physical therapy. This doctor does 20-30 minutes of DEEP TISSUE massage and gets me feeling better. For the first time in a decade my back pain is not as apparent!! I start exercising and I feel better.
I am able to DROP 3 of the 4 medications I was taking! So after 8 years of this stuff and a failed operation, I AM GETTING BETTER. But when I think BACK to all the people who just JUMP on you because you have to take medication to take the pain away for just a little bit! WHO ARE these people and WHY are they SO HELL BENT on making you feel bad and small for WHAT!!??
I have started in my late 50's doing things I havent done for 10 years!!! I can SEE the end of the road for the medical processes I have had to go through for TEN YEARS!!
But what is SO SAD is, the question, "Is the system set up to HELP the chronic pain sufferer?" NO, and I wonder do they want to help? Or PUNISH you so much to the point you either END your life or just give in and become a life long sufferer. I CHOSE not to. But the system in this country is not set UP for the Chronic Pain sufferer to SUCCEED!! ON the CONTRARY, it is VERY MUCH SETUP for YOU TO FAIL and end UP suffering for the REST of your life!
I hope those who suffer like I have can find that very narrow road I have and climb out. Its THERE but over grown with Prescription TASK FORCES set up by the DEA, The FBI, and your local police to TAKE YOU OFF THE STREET!! The only thing was, I was never ON the street. But I was nearly PUSHED there by a system that I think is setup for me to FAIL!
BUT seeing the right doctor and having the right procedure is NOT a clear cut thing! I told my wife I almost wish I had CANCER because at least there is a path to take! I know that is not a clear headed think to say, and cancer sufferers will tell you they wouldnt wish that on anyone but thats HOW MUCH YOU GET BEAT down by EVERYONE even in the medical system as evidenced by the nurses that so QUICKLY labeled me as an addict. But I was NOT. And there are those of YOU that ARE NOT! You have PAIN and it HURTS and makes your life MISERABLE.
I just wish in this day and age of "Medicine for Everyone" that someone would STAND UP for those of us in PAIN!! GOD BLESS all of you!
Joe
I was always athletic from the time I was -2. I think I came out throwing a ball, and if I didnt, I was chasing it. Fortunately or unfortunately I missed out on high school sports because we moved out to the country, right in the middle of middle school to a school that didnt have a football program, and then into high school where I really wanted to play football (who in Texas didnt) but even at 15 I knew that the wishbone offense wasnt for a 125 lb skinny boy, no matter how fast I was or how good my hands were. At my high school a forward pass was something you did on a fake punt. I played baseball all the way up through Colt league but I came from really developed programs in the city to the country fields where you had to share the outfield with the dairy cattle. The point of all this is my body had very little wear and tear on it as I reached my 30's. I played intramural football, basketball and baseball in college, but that was nothing compared to friends of mine that had double knee surgery in high school.
I graduate college, and work for the military at a very remote place in the middle of the Mojave desert. Utah, Nevada, Oregon, Idaho, Arizona and California are all equidistant, from where this place is. That means very little to do besides work, except for sports. Work times were lax so you could play tennis or basketball at lunch and besides where were you going to after work? Might as well take an hour and a half at lunch and work a half hour late. The best things to do were to join every league I could get into because out here no matter what sport I was as good as any other worker out here. There was mens basketball, Softball, Tennis Club, snow skiing was just hours away and you could do it in a day. Golf was all year round. Running was big, hiking, and cycling. We had a friendly football game every season and if that wasnt enough you could race motocross all over the desert and the West coast.
Well this is all fine and good, and drinking a few beers after the big game was great enjoyable fun, but in my late 40's nagging injuries started to be more of a nag. But I soldiered on I had a high tolerance for pain. One year I had just started learning motocross and I was riding in the desert after work getting ready for a race a state over in California. I developed what I thought was a heat rash around where I carried my waterbag. After the race my arm was still killing me, I though it would go away after the race, but it didnt. So I go see my doctor and he tells me I have a HUGE tolerance for pain because my rash was the late stages of shingles and he had never seen anyone come in with that late of a case. So he prescribed some pain medication for it. That was the first time I had take it in a LONG time but I remember just one pill was fine. But that was an indication that I didnt wander in to the Dr.s office for any little thing.
About 4 years after that I had a large bone sticking out my foot. A spur I think, it was hard to ski with it and I had my first surgery. By now I am in my late 40's and I am still playing everything under the sky BUT when I would bust up an ankle or twist a knee. The Dr. would look at my chart and ask me about the level of pain medication. Fine I would say. Then at 48 I am running pass pattern playing with guys and I leaped into the air and come down on my knee and rip a large bruise in my thigh about the size of a small football. As normal I go snow skiing a week later, no problem. But now I notice my lower back is really starting to ache and a beer and a ibuprofen is no longer working. So over the next few years its getting worse and the Dr. has put me on a pain med program. But after awhile the back pain is increasing and I am going to physical therapy, which was a complete waste of my time and the therapist but hey they are getting their $100 a visit so shut up get on the treadmill stretch, do ice, and go home. I do this for months but didnt come close to using up my insurance for the visits.
THIS is when I start hearing whispers. "How much pain medication is he taking?" People think they are talking behind my back but I hear them and I understand exactly what they are getting at. When i went in to my Doctors office to ask to switch to something else I heard for the first time "we think he is addicted" I am no medical professional so even my mind is working against me. AM I addicted? Well all I have to do close my eyes at night and that roaring dull pain square in the middle of my back is NOT my imagination.
So now I arrive at the point where a TON of people get to I bet. I am HURTING! SOMETHING is wrong with my back! What I am taking is NOT WORKING! AND the Doctor, his associates in his office, the nurses and the staff are all whispering about my addiction. At this point everyone starts working AGAINST you because you are a USER and you are taking ADVANTAGE of the program. Even my wife is thinking I have passed over the edge!
At this point the pain is not going away, and life itself is starting (Starting?) to REALLY SUCK! Since there is no where else to go (this is in the late 2000's) and my pain is getting worse, I start DRINKING to subsidize the small amount of meds they WILL let you have. People who know you and have known you are all starting to gang up. You are looked down on and all the time nobody gives a rats ass how you feel! WHY should they? You are a drug abuser!
During the 2007 time frame a new (new to me) type of doctor came out. They may have been around in big cities but they werent around in my little part of the great plain basin, a PAIN MANAGEMENT doctor. I still dont know if these guys help or hurt you but they do like to string you along. I have no medication at point I have no medication and the Dr. starts you at a low dose of a stronger med than you were taking before. It doesnt matter that your pain maybe at a level that is 10 times worse than it was a year ago. The Dr. is not going to give you 10 times what you were taking before. So what happens is you find out that the pain medication works! For a little while you can almost behave normally! Most importantly if you ARE serious about treating your pain, you had better drop the alcohol at this point because if you are seriously going to treat your condition you can no longer drink and that might be forever.
But it doesnt take long for the Dr. to start treating you like the others. He gives you a small dose no matter how severe the pain is. Because our society is beating into the head of everyone that there are abusers EVERYWHERE and if we dont shut them down society will be in the toilet. There are watchers all over. IN FACT even the pharmacies are getting in to the shutting down the patient. If your doctor says you need medication now, and your insurance says you can have it now based on their restrictions, the PHARMACY WILL NOT DISPENSE until 3 days ahead of the 30 day mark of your last prescriptions! I DONT understand WHO made the Pharmacy GOD! BUT they overrule everyone now, your doctor and your insurance! Another line in the fight against the PAIN SUFFERER.
Dont get me wrong. There ARE abusers. There ARE forgetful aging adults, but there are sufferers who wonder what went wrong in life and WHY were they dealt this hand?
Just before the end of the decade I go into one of the best surgical places in the Western United Stated and see a back specialist, probably the 4th or 5th EXPERT I have been to. At this point it seems as there there is no option out side of surgery. So I have it done. My pain management Dr. says its 50/50 why dont you stay on your pain regimen. "Because I DONT WANT TO KEEP TAKING MEDS!!!" But the Dr. is out of my pocket and that doesnt help him. I go in for a procedure called FLEXIBLE FUSION.
After the surgery I dont feel like I am getting better no matter how much physical therapy I do. He puts me on a muscle relaxer, but that only makes me more dull.
Once in a MAJOR emergency I am stuck in an other state and my meds run out. I am in the HOSPITAL with a family member and I cant leave. I just go see one of the doctors and get my refill right? I have the bottle, no problem. BUT IT IS! Nobody will help and I end up driving 800 miles while going through withdrawls because the hospital wont lift a finger to help. THANKS Medical System!! For making people who suffer SO MUCH suffer even some MORE!!
A year later a family member suggests Rehab!! Its been 1.5 years and I am not better, I am addicted right! WRONG, my back did NOT take to the flexible Fusion and I suffer for 3 more years after the embarrassment of going through rehab with drug addicts.
Three years after the first surgery, I have REAL fusion, and go through all the post op crap everyone has to go through. And I almost went and had it at a smaller hospital and I FREAKED out and walked out just before surgery. So I go back to the world leader and have the real fusion.
I cant do anything for a year and then in to physical therapy. But this time I go to a MD of physical therapy. This doctor does 20-30 minutes of DEEP TISSUE massage and gets me feeling better. For the first time in a decade my back pain is not as apparent!! I start exercising and I feel better.
I am able to DROP 3 of the 4 medications I was taking! So after 8 years of this stuff and a failed operation, I AM GETTING BETTER. But when I think BACK to all the people who just JUMP on you because you have to take medication to take the pain away for just a little bit! WHO ARE these people and WHY are they SO HELL BENT on making you feel bad and small for WHAT!!??
I have started in my late 50's doing things I havent done for 10 years!!! I can SEE the end of the road for the medical processes I have had to go through for TEN YEARS!!
But what is SO SAD is, the question, "Is the system set up to HELP the chronic pain sufferer?" NO, and I wonder do they want to help? Or PUNISH you so much to the point you either END your life or just give in and become a life long sufferer. I CHOSE not to. But the system in this country is not set UP for the Chronic Pain sufferer to SUCCEED!! ON the CONTRARY, it is VERY MUCH SETUP for YOU TO FAIL and end UP suffering for the REST of your life!
I hope those who suffer like I have can find that very narrow road I have and climb out. Its THERE but over grown with Prescription TASK FORCES set up by the DEA, The FBI, and your local police to TAKE YOU OFF THE STREET!! The only thing was, I was never ON the street. But I was nearly PUSHED there by a system that I think is setup for me to FAIL!
BUT seeing the right doctor and having the right procedure is NOT a clear cut thing! I told my wife I almost wish I had CANCER because at least there is a path to take! I know that is not a clear headed think to say, and cancer sufferers will tell you they wouldnt wish that on anyone but thats HOW MUCH YOU GET BEAT down by EVERYONE even in the medical system as evidenced by the nurses that so QUICKLY labeled me as an addict. But I was NOT. And there are those of YOU that ARE NOT! You have PAIN and it HURTS and makes your life MISERABLE.
I just wish in this day and age of "Medicine for Everyone" that someone would STAND UP for those of us in PAIN!! GOD BLESS all of you!
Joe
Sunday, August 31, 2014
School is OUT for the American Leadership
Any body notice that leaders across the globe are stepping up and being heard? Why are so many world wide leaders are pushing forward and making statements-Good or Bad? Because of the giant vacuum in what is the worldwide leadership role of the United States. If you want something important from the President of the United States all you are going to get is a Ruling on whether Obama can get relief from the cart path.
While it appears that nobody is in control of the Worlds Police force all the bad guys are going bonkers with crazy statements and getting away with it. It reminds me of being in high school in your pre calculus class and you KNOW the hardest test of the year is coming today and you show up to class and you have Mr. Wilson the 80 year old substitute instead. Remember that feeling? Thats the feeling that Putin has, that ISIS has that Iran has had for the last 4 years. The tremendous relief that you can do ANYTHING you want and nobody is going to reprimand you for it.
Can you imagine Putin in a thinly veiled threat talking about how big a nuclear power Russia is if Reagan was around? Putin would get swatted like the little bad boy he is. But now with the leader of the free world more worried about the size of his putter, nobody fears any reprisal from anyone who knows right from wrong. At LEAST Putin said they were "ONE" of the Great Nuclear Powers instead of "THE" Great Nuclear Power. If I were him I would have gone for it with THE GREAT Nuclear Power. Like what would Obama do? I know he would COMPLETELY bar ANY Russian Caviar for his next fundraiser which would be right after the 18th Green.
Hey want to get to go behead a couple of American Journalists? Even if you are a British rapper instead of a real terrorist? Go ahead, its not like you are going to get caught. Hey go ahead and
take over Iraq, kill children and force men and women to convert or die, with American forces within sight. Obama can be bothered while the American embassy is over run in Libya, when he is in between the front and back nine. School is out.
With the most important thing on Obamas plate is to flood the United States with enough illegal immigrants to assure that no Republican candidate will ever be elected president EVER, why would you care about doing anything wrong across the globe, that would normally bring a strong, swift and powerful response from the US? Obama said before the election he was going to fundamentally change the United States. Stupid leftist thought that meant new laws and programs and welfare. HA HA, he only meant no Republican will ever be elected President again.
Why should you be surprised that the Mexican El Presidente would come to California and then lecture the United States on immigration when Mexico doesn't recognize the United States southern border, Illegally arrests American war fighters who mistakenly crosses THEIR recognized border and then holds him for months? A Real leader would have slapped Mexico HARD, but this guy could care less!
So the whole world knows School is out for Summer! They do not only not have to take their pre-
calc test, hell they dont even have to go back to school! Alice Cooper had no clue how true his song would be 42 years after he wrote it, or how relevant it would be with a feckless leader in the white house. I can just see Putin riding his horse down his ranch road with no shirt humming the tune knowing the only guy who could put his thumb down on his head doesnt even exist! Lets all hope that in 2014 November that School comes back in session.
While it appears that nobody is in control of the Worlds Police force all the bad guys are going bonkers with crazy statements and getting away with it. It reminds me of being in high school in your pre calculus class and you KNOW the hardest test of the year is coming today and you show up to class and you have Mr. Wilson the 80 year old substitute instead. Remember that feeling? Thats the feeling that Putin has, that ISIS has that Iran has had for the last 4 years. The tremendous relief that you can do ANYTHING you want and nobody is going to reprimand you for it.
Can you imagine Putin in a thinly veiled threat talking about how big a nuclear power Russia is if Reagan was around? Putin would get swatted like the little bad boy he is. But now with the leader of the free world more worried about the size of his putter, nobody fears any reprisal from anyone who knows right from wrong. At LEAST Putin said they were "ONE" of the Great Nuclear Powers instead of "THE" Great Nuclear Power. If I were him I would have gone for it with THE GREAT Nuclear Power. Like what would Obama do? I know he would COMPLETELY bar ANY Russian Caviar for his next fundraiser which would be right after the 18th Green.
Hey want to get to go behead a couple of American Journalists? Even if you are a British rapper instead of a real terrorist? Go ahead, its not like you are going to get caught. Hey go ahead and
take over Iraq, kill children and force men and women to convert or die, with American forces within sight. Obama can be bothered while the American embassy is over run in Libya, when he is in between the front and back nine. School is out.
With the most important thing on Obamas plate is to flood the United States with enough illegal immigrants to assure that no Republican candidate will ever be elected president EVER, why would you care about doing anything wrong across the globe, that would normally bring a strong, swift and powerful response from the US? Obama said before the election he was going to fundamentally change the United States. Stupid leftist thought that meant new laws and programs and welfare. HA HA, he only meant no Republican will ever be elected President again.
Why should you be surprised that the Mexican El Presidente would come to California and then lecture the United States on immigration when Mexico doesn't recognize the United States southern border, Illegally arrests American war fighters who mistakenly crosses THEIR recognized border and then holds him for months? A Real leader would have slapped Mexico HARD, but this guy could care less!
So the whole world knows School is out for Summer! They do not only not have to take their pre-
calc test, hell they dont even have to go back to school! Alice Cooper had no clue how true his song would be 42 years after he wrote it, or how relevant it would be with a feckless leader in the white house. I can just see Putin riding his horse down his ranch road with no shirt humming the tune knowing the only guy who could put his thumb down on his head doesnt even exist! Lets all hope that in 2014 November that School comes back in session.
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